Here is the thing ..

All my life I have aimed to please everyone else. Whether it was family, friends, boys, or work I never thought about myself, what I wanted, or what I deserved.

As crazy as this may sound I don’t exactly know what it means to love myself, make myself a priority, and take care of me. I know I desire it and want it more than anything but I am not sure how to go about getting it, accepting it, and BELIEVING it.

Yesterday was kind of a big deal. I received my first Dia & Co box. This is a styling company for plus size women where you share your likes and sizes and they send you multiple outfits and accessories to try. If you like them, you buy them. If you don’t, or need new sizes, you return and exchange. It’s really an amazing idea and so much fun!

When I opened my box the cutest package and note card was front and center. I quickly unveiled the goodies and immediately saw a gorgeous rose gold necklace, pair of Celebrity Pink jeans, kimono, tank, and the cutest ever dress!

Most of what was sent was adorable but I couldn’t live without the dress and the necklace.   I put the dress on and felt so cute.   It was then I said “screw it!” “I am going to be proud of myself and my journey and show the world where I am and how cute I can be!”  After all, if I am going to document this transformation and journey, I need to share it all.   If I am going to learn to love myself, it means all of my self … even if I don’t see it or agree.

The craziest thing happened when I made that statement to myself.  I uploaded the above pic to facebook and it is by far the most popular and most commented post I have had in years if not ever already and it hans’t been a full 24 hours!   It has given me a new pep to my step and when I woke up this morning and was looking in closet I knew I had to continue the cycle ….

Too cute Toucans, ripped capris and snap chat filters for the win!

I win!  I am cute!